Please no hate or nasty comments... just looking for advice.
I have 2 girls, one 2 and the other 6 months old. My partner only ever wanted 2 children however I have always wanted 4 so thought we could compromise and have 3. Our last baby had a very rough start to life needing surgery at 8 days old to save her life (she is fine now thank goodness) however was a great pregnancy until 33 weeks when she was delivered by emergency c section due to a gloubler placenta, however there were many complications with her after her birth. Because of this my partner has put his foot down he is absolutely not having any more children. I feel a little ripped off with my last baby due to not being able to have a natural birth like my first and not having that first bond and seding her first first if you know what I mean, she spent 5 weeks in hospital before being let home, and feel its necessary for me to have another so I can "move on" from the trauma that was sustained with my last. I am wanting another baby so bad I am starting to toss up whether to go ahead with finding a sperm donor or just having the two but know Ill always want another.
Am I being selfish? What would you do in this situation or how would you bring up your wanting to find a sperm donor if he doesnt want any more?
My 2 girls are my everything, I am beyond happy with them and love them with ever ounce of my being.